Nobody told me how good it was to grow up. I thought it was all screaming babies, fighting with your spouse and paying bills. I didn’t realize what I was missing out on. I always thought that I was looking for some kind of quality in someone when it’s actually so much nicer finding people who make me feel good about myself.
He makes me smile. I enjoy being around him and I feel safe to be myself. I don’t have to play act and do certain steps to get at something. I can just take things as they come and be happy about it. I just never realized this before. I seemed to be attracted to the kind of people who I saw presenting a certain image that I thought that I liked. Now I see that good things are right in front of me – I just had to look. I guess it’s a testament to me being a good enough person to attract good people and I am so happy about this.
I am not worried about what might be. I don’t have questions about where this might go or what I should expect. I am happy with what this is right now and I feel blessed to have experienced this. I never imagined that feelings like this existed. It’s like my eyes have been opened to a new light. Perhaps it is maturity, perhaps it is simply growing into myself. Whatever it may be, I am here to accept it and be thankful for it.